Crusaders of Benevolence

My Brothers and Sisters,

My heart is extremely heavy from the things I am seeing and all the souls that will be lost. A few weeks ago I had dream that really troubled me.

I was at a house going through training for a job. I was surrounded by other people that I knew in some way.

Lunch time came around and we all decided to go eat at a mexican restaurant. After we ordered our food we sat outside. The waiter brought us our food and when I looked at the silver platter he brought me, I saw a tarantula that was cooked with its legs sticking up and a piece of fish with its bones sticking out resting on a bed of shredded lettuce and tomatoes on the side. There was also a small fork on the platter normally used to eat lobster and a cup of BBQ sauce.

I started to feel anxiety as I looked at the spider. I broke off one of its legs, dipped it in the BBQ sauce and began eating it. As I ate the leg, although I felt anxious, I knew nothing would happen to me. It was not until I looked at the body of the spider that I felt apprehensive about eating it. I envisioned a yellowish-green gooey substance being squeezed from the body that was poisonous.

I then shifted my gaze to look at the piece of fish. Instantly I felt peace and calm. I looked at the spines and thought, “I am going to prick myself on the bones if I try to eat it.” I was not troubled though. The way I would eat the fish would be to use the fork gently, calmly and patiently to scrape the meat out from between the bones.

I can only attempt to intepret the images in my dream. One of my brothers in my bible study group used to worship Satan. He has even mentioned that he has drank blood. All I can say is that this gentleman has an extemely deep connection with the spiritual realm. When I mentioned my dream to my bible study group, he told me hat some demons manifest themselves in the image of a spider and that the act of me eating the legs was a symbol of me overcoming demonic forces. He also mentioned that after our prayer to begin our study, he felt a strong uneasiness among us. We all seemed to agree that something during the week ocurred that troubled us. I mentioned also to the group that I had seen myself being persecuted.

Now this is a little interesting. I can’t seem to remember if I tried to envision this happening to me or not. All I know was that I was laying down on a futon in my house and I saw myself being laid out on a table much like the one used to torture Mel Gibson in the movie Brave Heart. The device was in a laboratory that was dark with only a light shining above me. I was tied down to the device and was looking up towards the heavens envisioning God our Father taking away the pain I would feel once they began torturing me. Although I was not looking at it, I saw a long tool with a small looking scyth blade at the end begin to cut into my forearm. I then saw the tool cutting into my torso. I do not recall if I felt any pain.

That week ended up with me trying to figure out why I saw what I did and why it was troubling me. I do know I will be persecuted in some manner. When, I do not know.

Your Brother in Christ my Beloved Brethren,

Paul